Estella, it just kills me, too. You have no idea how much that whole sequence kept running in my head over and over today. I'm trying not to overdo the angst between them now because if I make them *too* damaged, it would be hard to make their eventual coming together credible. Then again, I may already have crossed that line a long time ago. It's hard for me to tell. I'm too close to this.

Oh, the scene from the Ewan movie I was trying so valiantly to recreate? It's from Pillow Book. I don't want to spoil the movie for those who haven't seen it. But the scene at the end of this part, where Curt is banging on the door, begging Brian to let him in, and screaming that he loves him, echoes some of that movie's tragic intensity. It's not for the faint-hearted. :(

~Silk

Resident Queen of Brian/Curt Slash




"The world is changed cause you are made of ivory and gold..."