*** It almost feels like Brian has let down his guard by letting Curt in and discarding the mask of his *persona* to the point he feels as vulnerable as he did as a child.***

That's it exactly, Alba. No drugs to buffer what he feels. No mask to distance himself from other people, but most especially, Curt. Curt is the only one that Brian allows to see him like this. If he seems fragile, it's because he's risking *everything* on Curt. If Curt rejected him now...well, that'd be the end of Brian, I think.

***He seems so fragile I just want to put my arms around him and protect him! But he always bounces back, and if it is Curt holding him he will be fine! Getting past that wounded feeling will allow him to really be himself, then watch out!***

Me, too. I want to give him a big hug. He's such a sweet boy this way. Yet I don't want to lose the essence of what it's like to be *Brian*. On the other hand, as you mentioned to me, in the movie, Brian really doesn't show himself at all, except in his most vulnerable moments. Like after the break-up. So for *me*, maybe this *is* the real Brian. I think he was always this insecure. His stage persona was one way of dealing with the outside world and his arrogance was his way of fending off their potential rejection. Tragic, really.




~Silk

Resident Queen of Brian/Curt Slash




"The world is changed cause you are made of ivory and gold..."